[MOOD: happy]


If what you have said is true , I'm more than willing to try , even if it breaks my heart , perhaps , i'm willing to try .

Life is good , including you , those secrecy . Lol , work has been tiring , yet , fulfilling . Not working for New Year day , anyone want to go out ? Yuting , my date with you , when will be able to go out ? Let's go shopping man !! And baobei , let's go shopping too . Not together please , i want to spend time with your , productively .

And you , i don't know what to do with you , and i don't know what's going on . How can you do this to me , or even say such things , do you know what you're getting yourself into ? It's just ... crap . I may like you , but i'm not sure if we should ... move on . Let's see how , on ?

ps: it's confusing .



[MOOD: okay]


Reached singapore at 1+ in the morning . Madness . Bought very little clothes from there . Not sure why . Bought bras there , haha , quite happy actually . Random post , there's nothing much to update now , did i mention i had another dream , i dreamt that i got 14 points for O levels , i was very bloody sad , lucky it's a dream . I had another dream too , random , but it's also a sad dream . Will write my 2010 resolutions another time . I'm trying to adapt .


ps: why must you be an untouchable ?



[MOOD: happy]


I'm so proud of myself . Hehe . Nothing much today , made my bankbook and atm card . I want results to release earlier . I dreamt that i got 4 A's and i failed combine humanities . Lol , random . Thanks peisi for a lot of help , i love you , bao bei .


ps: Smile [:



[MOOD: okay]


I hate it when i see pictures of you , and you . Together , now it's better , last time , i think i'll cry . You've never thought that i may be so weak , maybe to your , i'm a bitch , blah blah . Then you're wrong , all of your who assume this , you're wrong . If i ever bitch you , like seriously , maybe you should ask yourself what have you done , what made me react like that . I don't do things without reasons , they're definitely not excuses , so i'm calling you to reflect . Of course , i'm never always right , i think . The appearance of you , and you in lot one . It's like tsk . No reason , maybe it'll be easier to forget . Both of your , i've love your both , once . I don't know why didn't i love your now , but the very presence of your still affects me . Maybe next time , it won't , i'll be able to love your , as strangers . Do not ever call me attitude , you think you don't have one ? The memory of hurt , i'll keep it . Shut the fuck up , i'll keep it . Perhaps one day , i'll tell you that too . Then you'll probably realize that it's gonna knock you off guard . It hurts , cos i've place you in that very position that my crushes have . Now is never the time to regret . Being with her is the most important thing now . You must be happy . I'll move on , or i have . I'll find someone eventually , who'll love me the way i loved you once .

ps: I love jacob , he'd loved bella till the end .



[MOOD: okay]


I don't like to be pangseh , i've had enough of these experiences since those band times , i hate them , so i left . Thanks wy , i think you sort of sense something , i don't know , maybe . I'm freaked out by the working thing , i'm not sure , i think so . Short post , i don't want to see them , not sure why , maybe after a while it'll be okay .


ps: Seeing your together makes me O.o , i hope it's a good thing , at least i won't do anything stupid to your . I was crying/tearing on my way back home just now , pathetic . It's not about them , i just feel abandoned . That moment .


Twinnie , maybe if you're there , i won't leave , at least i think you'll talk to me first .



[MOOD: okay]
[CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: 奉献]


This song is not bad , but a bit draggy . Tomorrow going to watch movie , if mum let , should be okay . Went to play ball with kahfong , then went bp cos it's raining . Zzz . I hope to find work soon . ASAP .


ps: i'm feeling miserable , is it your , or me ?



[MOOD: okay]
[CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: bad romance]


I wonder why didn't your stead ? Be together ? He didn't ask or you didn't accept ? Weird huh . Okay , maybe only to me . Is he overseas so you're worried ? I wonder why i care , maybe he's still there . I don't know . Watched AN EDUCATION today , i think it's not bad , if they have subtitles it'll be better . Somehow . I think i'm better already ?


ps: i hope i can love your , seriously . Go with him , okay ? Just don't appear .